You're happier without me anyways.

 Tragedy was part of our daily routine. But through it all, I never understood the point of being sad when I could choose to be happy.

"there’s good and bad things in each day, what matters is what you make of those situations and how you view them. you can learn from every mistake and find the joy that comes from a new life, or you can complain about your life day in and day out hoping someone drops you a sympathetic comment. sooner or later, you have to come to the point where you stop feeling sorry for yourself and start finding the reasons you’re here. your talents are unlike anyone else’s. embrace them."

I hate how we never got our chance to see what we really could have been.

"Here’s to the people forever loved,
who make our hearts want to scream,
‘cause I love you with all that I am
and my voice shakes along with my hands."

the hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let go - at least i thought it was. but in every boy i met in the next few years, i found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong i'd write you another letter. but i never sent them, in fear of what i might find. by then, you'd gone on with your life and i didn't want to think about you loving someone else. i wanted to remember us like we were that summer. i didn't want to ever forget that.

"all this time i was wasting hoping you would come around. i've been giving out chances every time... and all you do is let me down."

you need to have a little faith. not everyone you love is going to leave you.

'and i thought about how many people have loved those songs. and how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. and how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. and how much those songs really mean. i think it would be great to have written one of those songs. i bet if i wrote one of them, i would be very proud. i hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. i hope they feel it's enough. i really do because they've made me happy. and i'm only one person.'

 you are where you are right now in your life because of the choices you have made and the actions you have taken. if you want to change your life, remember that change starts with you.

"today i woke up alone, wishing you were here with me. i want us to be something we'll probably never be."

He can be so nice, then so mean. He can care and protect, make you laugh, and at the same time play games with your head, and after he's done with that, he'll tear your heart out, rip it in to the smallest fragments known to man and leave it on the floor. while all you can do is stand there, not being able to cry because you're so numb, because you thought that there was something there. when really there was nothing but a wayward boy out to break a poor girls fragile heart,  all because he didnt know what he wanted

'goodbye is the hardest thing to say to someone who means the world to you, especially when goodbye isn't what you want.'

"in my life, there's been no one like him - anywhere

i don't hate myself, just the things i do, but i hope you see that i'm trying to improve.

"The things about life that I've learned is that you're going to get hurt. You're going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. You're going to suffer some kind of heartbreak,
some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. You feel like you're alive again. Life just kinda restarts."

So you buried all your lover's clothes and burned the letters lover wrote, but it doesn't make it any better. Does it make it any better? no.

'She knew better. But her crazy heart didn't. It always broke, no matter how hard she tried to protect it'

You think you want to die... but in reality, you just want to be saved.

"He lied to you a thousand times. He hurt you twice as much as that, & you're gonna tell me you still love him? For what, breaking your heart?"

Newsflash: If you think you need a boyfriend, you're not ready for a boyfriend.

"It doesn’t matter if you have a boyfriend or a bunch of friends. If you're lonely then you will feel lonely with or without these factors. They don’t change it. They don’t make you feel less alone. Lonely doesn’t mean you don’t have people who love you, it just means you don’t feel it. It’s a state of mind, not reality."

if there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this; when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. and when you've lost hope, ask yourself , if ten years from now, you're going to wish you gave it one more shot. because the best things in life they don't come free.

'you can find the good in anybody if you just give them a chance, benefit from the doubt. sometimes people disappoint you, sometimes they surprise you, but you never really get to know them until you listen to what's in their hearts. '

I’ve gone through this before and that’s why I don’t get why this is so hard for me to deal with. It’s the simple fact that he just doesn’t want me like I want him, I guess, maybe, it’s so hard because for a while there he made me feel like he did, maybe that’s the difference

"All my life, I have felt like there was some part of me missing and I felt that everyone could tell, like there was some hole in me, and everyone could see through it, like I wasn't finished or something."

again, the English language fails to have a word to describe the depths of sadness, how way a heart can feel heavy, how a stomach can drop to your feet, or how missing someone can cripple you.

^yeah.

People are particularly stupid today. I can't talk to anymore of them.

  Yeah I talk to other guys, hug other guys, laugh with other guys, but no one will ever mean as much to me as you did.

"Do you ever just sit & wonder why he chose you? Do you ever stop & think that it was just too good to be true. Does it ever seem like you're afraid to lose him, because he's the only one that makes you so happy?"

there are some people in life that make you laugh a little louder, smile a little brighter and live a little better.

I know he'll break my heart. I know I'll fall apart and I know because this is how it starts. Maybe it's wrong of me to wish that we could be, but your kiss matched mine so perfectly.

"the thing I know, anyone can know- but my heart is mine and mine alone"

he's got brand new friends, I've got a few new songs but mostly new headaches and reasons not to call.

^ahahaaha, it's true.

Dealing with backstabbers, there was one thing I learned. They're only powerful when you got your back turned.

I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge, you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.

"Love don't come so easily, this doesn't have to end in tragedy. I have you and you have me. We're one in a million, why can't you see?"

It's not just physical attraction. I love you for every single thing that you are. Every word you say, every step you take. This is something that will never die.

'And sometimes your heart takes you to places that can never lead to a happy ending.'

There were times when he caught me, but more times when he let me fall. And it finally came time for me to learn that I could pick myself up off the ground and walk away.

What hurts is that I used to be the one, and I know he loved me then, I swear to God he did.

"She’s moved on & I feel sorry for you because she thought you were the most amazing boy ever. If she could have any guy in the world, she would have picked you above all the others. She thought you were different, she was wrong. You’re just another guy to her now."

”I miss you, I do. I love you. Every day I wake up and have this ache in my chest, and sometimes I just sleep in because I know when I wake up, you're not going to be there.”

There is this one boy in my life. He means a whole lot to me. I will never be over him, and I will never, ever forget him. I don’t know where the roads of life will take up, but when I look back at high school, he will be one of the people I will see first. He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, he makes me want to be a better person. I get jealous all the time - but he is no way mine, and will most likely never be; but I cant help it. And even though that is true… I don’t mind being his friend. I would do absolutely anything for him, and I think he knows that. And people tell me to move on, or forget about him, I never will. All the time I pretend nothing is bothering me and that I don’t need him. And I’m okay with that. I’ll be his friend forever and ever, as long as that means I’m a part of his life.

Love makes you do funny things. It makes you proud. It makes you sorry. That night we talked; we talked about life, about our time together. Maybe we aren't the same two kids we once were, but some things never change. Some things last, & even though I didn't know what was going to happen to us or where we were going, I just knew I couldn't let you out of my life.

 Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes, change may not be what we want. Sometimes, change is exactly what we need. And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll never have to do, but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever though possible. Sometimes, change is too much to bear. But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life

"Just be who you are. Wait your turn, don't push.Be beautiful. Be graceful. If you're gonna get angry, be angry behind closed doors. Don't ever let them see you sweat but just hold your head up, no matter what and don't ever let anyone stomp on you"

ever have that person in your life that you just can't give up on? the one person that can screw you over time after time,but you always give them another chance and there is always another chance waiting for them.the person you know you're better off without but you can't seem to let them go. having this person in your life,it doesn't make you weak, it just means you have a weakness. there is no way to stop loving them, so don't bother to try...but don't let them define your life, either. it's yours, and yours alone.

i'll tell you what the end of the world will be like. it will be a final moment; both terrible and heartbreaking absolute chaos. people running as fast as they ever have, cars filling every road and freeway, phone lines backed up trying  to process millions of calls, fingers flying over keyboards, thumbs texting like rapid fire, long lines of people trying to cram themselves into the subways and airplanes. all of them trying to tell someone else, 'i love you.'   it's not the end of the world yet, but don't wait until then to tell them. the worst thing isn't the end of the world, it's what you didn't finish; what you didn't say when you had the chance.

"to all those girls who dream away their days, who feel jealous at every happy couple they see, who have made themselves think they'll be alone forever; soon it will be your time to shine. i believe in second chances, i just don't think everyone deserves them."

the feeling i got when i was holding your hand, the way you look at me with your eyes, the way you smile at me. i don't want those feelings to go away; that is why i keep holding on.

.
'her smile was fake. her laugh covered her tears.
it was all too much for her to take. she always acted like nothing was wrong,
even when she hated being alone.'

Keep walking kid, choke on your past.

  All I need tonight is my girls, a few shots & a dancefloor, and I swear I'll forget you.

"she's not like that now. she knows better. she knows now that people lie and promises can be broken as quick as they're made. she understands that she might never be loved and too quickly good things fly in front of her eyes before she can reach out and grab them. there isn't a place for everyone in the world, so if you're standing alone for a while, that's why. not everything in life comes easy, but when you work the hardest, that's when it's the best. she has found out too soon, that in the end you are your own best friend. everyone will be broken at some point or another in his or her life and more often than not, it's gonna hurt like hell- but as much as you want to, you can't stop it. you can't change your fate. some things are meant to be and all the pain you go through will end up resulting in something huge. you don't know what it is, and when it happens, but it'll hit you like a ton of bricks. over time, certain things no longer have an effect on you, and that happens because that's the way it's supposed to be. but you'll learn all that later in life, when little things like a sunrise or a spring rain start to matter. but it might catch you off guard and happen sooner than you think, i mean ask her- she knows."

The minute you start enjoying yourself and the person who you've become, when you walk into a room with your head held high, the minute you wake up and are glad to be you, the possibilities and opportunities will come knocking at your door.

"Out of hundreds and thousands of stars, you're the brightest one."

"i don't fucking care!" she screamed at him with tears streaming down her face. she shook her head with all the thoughts in her head. Her voice was shaky and choked up but she didn't care her words made the point. "you know, i feel sorry for you. don't feel sorry for me i don't have any regrets at all. You're the one who makes yourself detached you're the one who gets a thrill at just fucking girls." she had the look of disgust all over her face as she continued. people in the halls were all dead quiet listening to her, the same people who have talked shit on her. "if i'm pathetic to you because i care, because i'm not afraid of love and i'm not afraid to put all i have into something fine. Call me fucking pathetic because i care too much. i'd rather that then do the shit that you do to people." she spat, and her words were the real and held such impact. and with that she walked away from them, all of them.

The girl you used to know? Oh, I must've forgotten to mention that. She left, just like you did.

And we can laugh all we want; I know it's your favorite, And I'll stare at you all I can, because you, you're my favorite.

Staring at tears on the pages of letters that I never could write.Now I know love isn't painless, but it's worth the risk, it's worth the fight.Playing it over and over, I wish that I could turn back time, baby we were wrong, but we could be right.Why do we say things we can't take back?Why do we miss what we never had? Both of us fell to the ground.The love was so lost, it couldn't be found.What would it take to forget who's blamed? I'm tired of crying out at the sound of your name.Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy, don't you want to be lost then found.

'I don't know when it's going to happen but it will. Soon you will realize that you don't really love her, the only reason you're staying with her now is because you're scared to be alone. Everyone knows that and it's time that you realized it too.'

"You may not be her first, her last or her only. She loved before and she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect you- aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking of you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break- her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."

You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy, somebody who doesn't complicate your life, somebody who won't hurt you.

It's like you had it planned. Like you smiled and shook my hand and said, "I'm about to screw you over."

Don’t worry, he’ll miss you. You’re the best he could get, and he blew it. Don’t let him make you think for one second that this was your fault. It’s not. He screwed up, and you did absolutely nothing wrong. You gave him your heart, and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn’t. And honestly, he’s not mature enough. He’s not smart enough. If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you every spare second he could. But he didn’t, and now he’s gone. But don’t you cry. Don’t call him telling him you miss him. Don’t IM him, don’t message him, don’t comment him, don’t talk to him in the hallways. Just pretend you don’t care. And don’t be surprised when he comes crawling back saying he made a mistake. And if you want to go, go with him again.  But make him work for you. Don’t be his doormat. Don’t let him in the first time he rings the bell. Make him come back every day until you trust him enough. If he doesn’t come back after a couple of tries, just let him go. But if he comes back every day, then he’s worth it. Trust me he’s worth it.

' i loved you. and here's a news flash; you protected me from nothing. i spent time missing you, wondering what the hell i did wrong to make you do that to me. i thought everything was my fault. and even when I got over that, i still knew what i'd lost: you. you were the one who made me laugh when i had a crappy day. you were the one I vented to when i was mad, the one i shared all the good stuff with. you always knew when i was full of crap, and you always called me on it. you were smart, you were funny, and you were good-looking. You were mine. and then suddenly, you weren't. i knew every day exactly what i'd lost, and i missed you every day, and i believed in you every day, and my heart broke every day. that's the big favor you did for me. Thanks so much. here's the kicker - you weren't even protecting me. you were protecting yourself. if you'd give half a thought to me, you would have said goodbye.'

i'm ready to be the girl I used to be. The one that never cried, the one that didn't get mad at stupid little things and the one that didn't sit around and worry about love

"google doesn't have all the answers. it can't tell you how to fall in love, or how to know if someone's falling in love with you. it can't tell you if you're falling out of love, or if someone's falling out of love with you. it can't tell you if someone is lying to you. it can't tell you how to say goodbye to people you love. it can't tell you if you should follow your head or your heart. google can't explain why he left. it can't explain why he didn't follow when you walked away. nobody can answer those questions, except ourselves."

You didn't intentionally break my heart, you even said you were sorry. I cried anyway.

  When you forgive people it's because you still want them in your life.'

unless you're from a place where "bagels" mean "syphilis". Then it probably doesn't sound so amazing.

"Everything will be okay, You're beautiful, and it's far more than skin deep. let it shine.

I'm so sick of this silence. Please don't look at me that way. I hadn't meant to do this once again, Why can't you fall in love with me I ask? Because I'm just not her.

"Later that day I got thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started. and those that bring you back. The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. and you can fnd someone to love the you that you love, well, that's just fabulous."

You know when your heart is aching but you refuse to give in to the pain, so you just numb out? Yeah. that's how I feel. All the time.

you seem to have a huge presence in my mind. You manage to confuse and depress me and manage to stay there. I congratulate you on your efforts.

"When you hugged me, that was when I really started to cry. It was when it actually hit me - no heaves and sighs, just tears flowing down my cheeks. most people would have just given me a hug and let go, but you held on like you were trying to make sense out of all of it, too. It was like you needed the hug just as much as I did. When you hugged me, that was when I really started to cry. It was when it actually hit me - no heaves and sighs, just tears flowing down my cheeks. most people would have just given me a hug and let go, but you held on like you were trying to make sense out of all of it, too. It was like you needed the hug just as much as I did. "

We accept the love we think we deserve.

It doesn't feel like its going to be okay. My eyes sting, my body aches, I dreamt about him in the two hours of sleep I got. and I just can;t get him out of my head, no matter how hard I cry. how loud I yell if I kick and scream, cut, pull my hair out. He's still there. and I can't figure out why I can still love him with ever piece of my heart is broken into little tiny unfixable pieces.

it's because I'm young, stupid & really good at making bad decisions.

I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I be sure about  anything. Most of the time I feel so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, and I get so frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it.

So I prefer to remember my smiling face and not this fucking wreck that's taken its place.

"Reality is only an illusion that occurs due to the lack of alcohol."

Dear whoever is reading this, you are loved. you are lovely. and you are loved. end of story.

"I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling empty inside. I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of feeling crazy. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of yelling. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired or dreaming of a life I'll never have. I'm tired of mssing things- I'm tired of missing people. I'm tireed of remembering. I'm tired of not being able to just let go. I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of needing help. I'm tired of always wondering when god is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I'm tired of being sad."

'i love what you are, and what you do and how you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength that carries you. I've seen the best of you & the worst of you. I understand with perfect clarity what you are. i love you.'

& every time you feel like crying, I'm gunna try and make you laugh. even if i can't, if it just hurts too bad. then we'll wait for it to pass and ill keep you company through those days long and black.

just be yourself because no one can ever tell you that you're doing it wrong.

The worst feeling in the world is knowing you've been used and lied to.

" i wish i could save all the tears i cried for you, so i could fucking drown you in them "

'Sad isn't it? How no matter what you do or sat ro me, when you come running back, when you need me again, I'll be here, right here waiting for you, I'll take you back, no questions asked.'

i didn't ask for it to be over, but then again, i never  asked for it to begin. for thats the way it is with my life, as some of the most beautiful days come completly by chance, but even the most beautiful days have their sunsets.

"I won't ask for promises, so you don't have to lie. We've both played that game before. first i say i love you, then you say goodbye"

Sure, it's nice to trust people, but never stop relying on yourself. you came into this world alone, and you're leaving the same way too.

I don't have a fear of commitment, I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up, I screw things up. Especially with people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be to close. I don't understand any of it. I'm sorry.

"& I know that htings between us are pretty much beyond repair right now, and i wouldn't ever presume to try and make everything better with a conversation, so that's not what this is- but i wanted to tell you, i wanted to say i'm sorry, I'm sorry for the pain i caused you, but mostly, I'm sorry for my part in it. I miss our friendship and however far off it may be- I look forward to the day that we can be friends again."

I don't know where we went wrong, and why we grew apart. but you should know. I miss you.

"I just don't know if i wanna do it anymore, get close to somebody so they can leave again"

Some people cna just move on, you know. They cry and they mourn and then they're done with it. or at least appear to be. but to me, I don't know. I didn't want to fix it. I didn't want to forget it.It wasn't something that was broken. it was just something that happened. and I'm finding ways, everyday, of working around it. I'm respecting it and remembering it, but I'm getting along with my life at the same time.

"Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes, change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is exactly what we need, and sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do. but sometimes saying hello again is the one thing that breaks you down. and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible. sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life."

If you want me in your life. find a way to put me there because frankly, i'm sick of trying.

I don't think I'm capable of not loving you.

It's amazing the things you realize when you lose someone: you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million, you take for granted the days spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. Anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before.

The truth about forever, you'd never understand.

If your trying to break my heart, you know it's working..

Don't believe him if he comes back and says he misses you. Remember, he chose not to be with you. 

please don't go away. no one's ever stuck around with me for so long, and if you leave i just remember things better with you. it's there, i know, it is cause when i look at you i can feel it. i look at you and i'm home. please. i don't want that to go away. i don't want to forget.

The saddest kind of sad, is the sad that tries not to be sad. You know when sad tries to bite its lip and not cry and smile and say, "No, I'm happy for you"? That's when it's really sad.

I hate how you know I would take you back in a heartbeat.

Listen to your best friends when they tell you he's not worth it because they can see what you refuse to.

" and the hardest kind of depression to treat is the one you can't see.  They're the smiling ones, the ones who look perfectly fine. the ones who are laughing, the ones who are dying inside. the ones who seem perfectly happy. Those are the ones who need the most help, because you can't tell when they're sad "

'I wish someone would treat you half as bad as you treat me, then maybe you'd know how it feels.'

So what if I'm a bitch? you're a whore, and I'd quite frankly I'd rather be known for what I did than who I did.

you know what I've finally realised? my biggest mistake was letting you hurt me & still thinking it was my fault..

"I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody's going to come and save you, you've got to save yourself. Nobody's going to give you anything, Nobody's knows what you want except for you. and nobody will be as sorry for you if you don't get it. So don't give up on your dreams"

.. don't worry, you may think you'll never get over it. but you also thought it would last forever.

Everyone's got a story, everyone has a scream.

I don't believe in celebrities, I think they're robots.

"If everything was always smooth and perfect, you'd get used to that. you have to have a little bit of disorganization now and then. Otherwise you'll never really enjoy when things go right."

They honestly believed that things would just work out, and the weirdest thing was. they did. somehow. eventually. everything always worked out.

thats my problem, I don't talk to anybody about whats going on in my head because I'm afraid they won't be able to handle it.

'My friends always ask what I see in you, I laugh and simply say.. everything you don't'

You don't need me, thats whats breaking my heart.

"I'm sick of this feeling, this feeling that I'm not good enough for anyone. That no one will ever want me. I want to be able to feel good. I want to have a relationship with someone, anyone, that won't be ruined by my fear of losing them"

Tell me my dreams are unrealistic, I'll tell you yours aren't big enough.

"So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. You do things you used to be against, you date the people you thought you never would,  and you befriend people you used to hate. You'll learn what it's like to have your heart broken, to lose afriend that truly meant something to you, and to feel as if everything is really falling apart. there will be times that your life seems so absolutly horrible it feels like it's not real. Despite all this, good things will come too. You'll make the most amazing friends that will be there for you even when they probably shouldn't. Your broken heart will finally heal once you meet the most amazing guy you've ever met, and just as nothing else can go wrong. things will only get better. There will be days that you feel like dying. drama happens, gossip goes around,  and EVERYONE talks shit, maybe this is just highschool. maybe it's life. or maybe this is what growing up is"

I'm mad at myself- not you. I'm mad for always being nice, and for always apologizing for things I didn't need to. I'm mad at myself for getting attached, I'm mad for depending on you and most of all. not hating you when I should.

i don't say i love you to get attention or to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing thats ever happened to me..

'I've accepted that we can't be, but I've also accepted that you're going to be that one person I carry with me for the rest of my life. The one who is always going to make my heart jump and my stomach tie into a knot. No matter how happy I am otherwise and no matter how long it's been. The one I will always wish had secretly asked me to dance even though I'm happier with the guy that did. Do you realize how incredibly difficult it is to accept both those things at once?'

It's not that I'm mad at you, it's that I hoped and prayed that you could be the one that never let me down.

i've never had this many feelings for one person. Don't get me wrong, I've fallen for people before, but it's different this time. This time I feel so much.

It's okay to cry, its alright to miss him, its okay to be sad about it, and its okay to wish that you did something differently. but never blame yourself for how things turned out, never tell yourself you can't do better. and never tell yourself this is the end of the world. fate has a time and a place for all of us and nothing you can say or do will change that. sure it's okay to fall- but its never okay to stay down.

"Can I ask you a question? Can you swear to tell me the truth? What, exactly makes me not good enough?"

Happy fathers day daddy, I love you. Rip<3

"& I promise you he'd be here if he could, but heavens just to far."

^ and thats the thing, you never got used to it. You never get used to the idea of someone you love so much being gone. Just when you think it's okay and you've accepted it. Someone points it out to you and it hits you all over again. It's just as shocking as the first time.

It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone. Part of me went with you when god called you home.

The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're alive.

Let's ignore eachother, and try to pretend the other doesn't exsist, but deep down. let's know it wasn't supposed to end like this.

How could you leave her? she told you she loved you and you just left..

So i've dont my fair share of drinking, drugs, sex and other bad things in life- and aparantly the rest of the world knows about it.

Part of me just wants to find the right words to hurt you, the same way you hurt me..

"Behind every beautiful thing, there is some kind of pain"

Maybe they both cried that day.

You changed that girl, from a girl who loved the world to a girl who couldn't even fake a smile.

"You got under her skin like and in her system, you're the drug she hates but can't stop taking. the thing she loves the most but you're killing her slowly"

'i miss you once again, i was doing so well. i thought i was getting along, but it comes in waves. when i hear your name, when i see the summer stars. It's back to that very night you slipped away. the pain lingers on in the back of my mind'

You didn't care about me, you don't destroy people you care about.

There was always more money to make, and more shit to bitch about.

you're single, not dying. relax.

'Sometimes you need a breakdown. One of those yell at everyone, cry until you fall and can't breathe kind of breakdowns. Then you feel better, and if you don't? Then at least people know you're not okay.

No matter what your relationship status is, everyone has someone they would marry tomorrow if they asked them today.

"I miss you- correction, I miss us"

People say I've changed so much. Well here's the honest truth. I grew up, I stopped letting people push me around. I learned that you can't always be happy- I accepted reality.

"everyones starting to ask me what's wrong, and I don't even know at this point. because i've hurt so much for so long, and hide it all this time. It's hard to explain it now"

'i just don't know if i wanna do it anymore, get close to somebody so they can leave again.'

The trouble with miracles is they don't last long, amd the trouble with bad things is. you can't sleep through them.

You don't choose how you're going to die, or when, you can only decide how you're going to live- now.

katie. xo.